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there is no hope for tomorrow
there is no hope
none for life or after
none for freedom
none for any thought
without His say so. in all things we wear the great weight of His grinning. He must first be eased, first be convinced, for a life to advance..

your defenses are defenses of clay.

my friends have said to me: you talk with so many words, scrounging for all the answers. but does your life even reflect the truth you speak? you know what they say of he who sprays so many words.. the Lord cannot speak to you when you’ve clothed yourself in sin, to do so would defile the qualities of wisdom. if you were really listening, you’d hear His rebuke.. who can know His plan? He does what He wants, and no one can stop Him. If you would direct your heart properly, and even submit to Him, and if you should get rid of all that crud you keep dealing with. then, then my friend you will be able to look up to heaven, and see that endless light. Then you would trust Him, because there is hope; and you would look around and rest in the security. You would finally rest, and no one could steal that from you.

and I have said :
oh.. you truly are the only wise in the world?!, then with you all wisdom will also die. I am no fool, and am not inferior to you. And who DOESN’T know all that you’ve vomited back at me? Am I a joke to you?
Those who are at ease in this life, those are the ones to fear. For they hold calamity in contempt, as if it is only for those who’s feet slip? Yet it’s clear that the cruel are in power over us, and yet we know that God has given out all authority? So instead look around you, ask the trees or the animals or birds or the fishes, every one of these knows that the hand of the Lord has done this, and Whose hand is the life of every living thing, and the breath of all mankind?! Does not the ear test words, as the tongue tastes its food? wisdom and understanding come with age, therefore it’s is infinitely obvious that there is no one who could out age the Lord! I could never know more than Him! He builds what I cannot tear down, and tears down what I cannot rebuild. He does what He wants… I know this, just as you know. But I still will speak to the Almighty. I desire to argue with God. but you smear with lies; you are worthless physicians, medicating yourselves to appear as the ones you think the Lord requires you to be. I wish you would just be completely silent, and THAT would be your wisdom. And even listen to my argument before having a defense. if you shut up, will you be doing the Lord injustice? You would be speaking deceit or anything. Which is better for you, because if you are showing partiality in your speech then He will surely reprove you.
your religious phrases are like ash.
your defenses are defenses of clay.
so shut up. and let come on me what may. Yet why should I, who is scarcely sustained already off the skin of his teeth, why, why would I put my life into my own hands? Though He steals from me, and He slay me, still my only hope is always in Him.. nevertheless, I will argue my ways before Him. This also will be my salvation, for a godless man may not come before His presence.