nathanael.ink

To everyone                       who showed
and thus committed
with the two of us
                               on that day
to be there
for the both of us
                                and then
did nothing
except show up
to collect her things
                and some of mine

you
you are as rotten
                as they come
and no more rotten        
than as rotten                   as me

and to my parents
who drove
some 700 miles
twice
I wonder
if you can feel it
at all
the way that I do
                the way
effort                    never correlates
with outcomes
quite the way    one wants
never quite the way
                you told me        to trust
                that it would.

and to you
                on a starry throne                            reclined
your heel            
and our necks
on every continent
barely men
                what can we say               except
to hell
we go
for sin
unshown.