nathanael.ink

the way it would occur to me
is “what would GOD think?”
“what does HE think?”
but what i meant was
“what would you think?”
“what would they think?”
if they knew
knew that i did not know
what they meant by it
when they say we are all sinners
when they say deep down
they hate each other
i have never hated anyone
until you told me the word to use
for when I am dancing
and interrupted
for the feeling that comes up
when someone is disgusting
on purpose
to me

i wish i never learned it
they
like everyone
behave out from it
from their own basic
primal
primitive
perfectly human needs

i wish you would have known
to teach me that instead
to see every action
as mere expression
of some underlying
unconscious
motivation
to serve life
in them
even when the strategies they use
show up in the most offensive ways
unproductive
unimaginative ways
missing out on us
on me
missing out on making life as wonderful
as it could be