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when I search your name online
it doesn’t give me chills
or turn my stomach anymore
my skin doesn’t crawl
my hair etherized

when I search your name online
I don’t worry what I’ll see
or whose face will live so near to yours
a dazzling silver ring
a coffin full of love

when I search your name online
no one else even comes up
_________________anymore
you ran across the world
you always said you would

and when you search mine
the way I practice all the time
you’ll see me
and say nothing