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“I don’t have to make you happy”
it starts

and every thought since then has been
“why not”

and every thought since then has been
a tiny drop

a tiny drop on the well established order of
“I could never make anyone happy”
& “I am good for nothing”

I do not know how these became the standard model
(that is not my business)

but doctrines of complete depravity
I do not think helped

“I don’t have to make you happy”
it says

& “no one is asking you to”
replies

& what this respondent does not know
is that I already know no one
is asking for
me to do

anything
for them

as I said, they are already certain
I am good for nothing.