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when i became a christian
i was born
and the world shown in lumination
all the love i had for it

and when i was born
i was whole
and all my parts fit together
and did not enjam at all the world

and when i was whole
i was told, i was not
and i believed them

and when i believed them
my parts ajar’d, just like they said, and got lost
the world got grim and dull
and the womb of love i always felt i was in
enclosed
without me in it

when i became a christian
all the christians said, loud and for a long while, i was not and am not and will not be whatever it is i think god says i am to be