some people i love are dead
they’re just going to keep dying
we’re just going to keep dying
why
can’t i let that go?
he was my friend
she was their mom
i like repeating
pounding a note
or three piano keys
i like pounding
and repeating. i like when the player
repeats
and pounds the keys
i can feel it telling me
trying to tell me something
pounding and repeating keys
why does that tell
why does that feel
a little how remembering
dying feels
remembering love and dying
hearing of love and hearing of dying
hearing of living (and lives worth living)
and all of them dying
i can’t tell if love and worth-living lives
accumulate
at all, i can’t tell at all
but people i love
want me alive
so i try, at least, to pound the keys
to repeat and repeat
i am alive (though i may barely be)
i am
and for as long as you can read this
you are with me