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Life is not for the living

I should very much like to die,
if I were not of the impression that some unruly amounts of grief would be wrought
I am sure I would be dead by now.

The perspective I intellectually hold is that I am here to spread the Gospel, so that I might see as many as possible on the other side, bringing my Love all possible honor so far as I am able… it is that I do not often find that I spread that Gospel in a way that I consider substantial, I am therefore lead to conclude that my being here still is for not.
…Or I am left wondering if I ought to be here for some other reason, and that is when I arrive at my opening statement, that life is not for the living, but in fact for those too afraid to die.
– or those too self giving to die just yet.

One response to “Life is not for the living”

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    Kristi

    I wonder if your purpose is not so much to spread God’s love as to be God’s child. God isn’t in need of you to share who he is. He is God and is capable of doing it all on his own (Ps. 19:1). I am still learning what God’s purpose for his people is. But I am at the point that I don’t believe that God has asked me to do things for him (Gal.2:16) as much as I have been called to simply live a God glorifying life. My purpose is to know God. That is why Jesus came to reconcile relationship with us, so that we would be able to know him (Rom. 5:10, John 14:9). God wants me here on earth, and he made me to be just who I am to give glory to him (Ps. 139). It takes off a lot of pressure for me to do things right, as if my worth was based off what I do. We are to give glory to God. And that can only be done by knowing him (John 17:1-4). My worth and my purpose is based nothing on me and solely on him. I guess what I am trying to get across is that our purpose is not to do things for God. If we get caught up in what we do for him, we are only building our own good works. Our purpose is to know him, and through that he can work in our lives however he wants, our focus though, is on him.

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