AT SOME POINT I am there/here again. Wondering what it is I meant
at all to be saying with my life and my time and my words at all. It’s so
unusual now to feel myself saying something I think is very much wort
h saying, or very much worth the time that it will take to say it. I wanna
be in love, and I know that. But how could that really mean anything be
yond bizarre sentiment? What can it say for how I will get to work in th
e morning? Or what I will eat when I get back home without groceries f
or another night? How will it drive me to clean my room or to pay my b
ills or to care for anyone that is not me? I find so frequently I do not like
what people call me. Whatever it is, it’s never just right. I don’t want to b
e righteous nor sinner nor pussy or push-over nor pompous, not se
lf-loathing, nor esteemed, nor belittled I don’t want to be some bereaved
soul nor do I want to be some jackass addicted to happiness AT SOME P
OINT there has to be an ending…………………………………………………………
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To Do With Actors & Authors
a heavy face boils on the stage
a hold on their hearts as he opens
to every memorized manuscript which brings him severe tranquility- it brings him an intimate absence
of anything which is or was
. one’s own
-because one’s own can only deliver
. a cranky silence
*no small
. revelation. not even
. a line or clever phrase, just
the lapse of time on a silent stage
and his busy mind and the empty pagehe reads it off
the silent mug, the coffee stain
the coughing lungs, the laughing page
this is
some author’s way
. of raising stakes
turning the page
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To Grieve
We are all scrambling. It is all within the crags of emotion that we wrestle to circumnavigate both too-much-death, and too-much-hope.We cannot look upon it grinning, smugly wishing we too could go. We cannot grieve too richly, availing only a deep moan over soulless caskets. The more I cry out, the more I wonder why it is I am crying. Where they go, so also we all will go.
We have amputees retaining souls. We have brains lesser and greater in size and scale and lobes and wrinkles, and all retain souls. I have yet to point at any place and confidently say “there am I!” Thusly, I resolve that a man can leave a body, since, having removed each part individually, the soul never goes with any one bodily member. Consciousness distinguishes itself apart from all material things. So it is that I persist: where they go, soon also we all will go. In so much as to say, we will all be leaving here, and leaving with everyone else small or large percentages of body-mass to be grotesque residual material…
I don’t think I can bare being so near it again- wearing responsibility like a hefty double-yoke we heave-hoe along the grungy roads. Some Ox and I carry the weight of it. It might not be all mine, but I ought to pull equal shares with Ox toward the end(whatever end there may be.) Unfortunately Ox is time/space, and I add to him only the burden of my own dead weight. I cannot pull with him, instead he just pulls me ever along… sometimes I am limp, sometimes kicking, sometimes screaming, but for damn sure I am also beating my chest and my head in regret of my un-aiding laziness.
…there is not but wishings left; wish him rest, wish him heaven, wish him peace and quiet and some serene walk down an avenue of Grace, wish that when I lie down
someone will wish me the same. We package sentiments we wish we would be able to hear from the dirt. We hope in the long hours after we go, that they will cry as we have cried. It’s like we are so utterly petrified of the unknown that we make it up as we go. Not simply that we do not know where our friend’s soul goes, but that we in no way will ever know how the earth responded to our own going. If everyone grieves, we can quench up ourselves to know everyone will grieve for me too- that is the scrap solace we fashion in our heavy breathing. Truly truly, I say to you, there is no such solace in it.Lo, if there be a Home ahead of us, then the loss we face is that of friends moving away. Which can be a great loss indeed. One we scarcely know at all. For it would now be a moving away, losing phone numbers, and reverse engineering of Facebook so as to un-know everyone’s day. Imagine carriages and self-sustaining farmers in small districts -once you leave, it’s more unlikely than likely that their shimmering face will again be in your gaze.
Nonetheless, Home or not, the soul’s place is unknowably lost to us, thus hope in a Home is no foundation for much of anything -though perhaps enough a foundation for unusual, cunningly selfish, creatures like Grief. Instead good foundations ought to be laid in the concrete. If it can be swallowed, that some Home exists, and those at the door are generous, then one might alleviate the pain immediate. However, if we are under the impression that Faith be as trustworthy as our memory of yesterday, then we know only that Love exists with all authority. Love exists. Love who created justice, that He might subject Himself to it in our place. Love that instituted all things, has also the free agency to circumnavigate all conceivable limitations…
There is little more than the hem of anything to be clutching onto… so I curl my fingers into the hem of Love’s clothes
and beg both to understand, and to leave someday soon to be utterly with Him too…“For it is only right for me to feel this way about you all, because I have you in my heart…how I long for you all with the affection of Christ Jesus… Now I want you to know, brethren, that my circumstances have turned out for the greater progress of the gospel, For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain. But if I am to live on in the flesh, this will mean fruitful labor for me; and I do not know which to choose. For I am hard-pressed from both directions, having the desire to depart and be with Christ, for that is very much better; yet to remain on in the flesh is more necessary for your sake…”- Philippians 1:7-21
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now my voice even
now my voice even, is a violation
to what could make a world perfect.best, to not.
best to be, a missing something
perhaps person or suture, claimingperhaps heartless or murder
is better than the tone of me missing notes.02.25.09
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6 Claims: Plagues, Flood, Plants, Dragons, James, and Paul
Claims:
- The Egyptians kept very detailed records. The plagues, which would have wrecked their economy, are never mentioned.
- The lack of records would never prove within itself that something did or did not take place.
- Counter evidence through geology: http://www.telegraph.co.uk/science/science-news/7530678/Biblical-plagues-really-happened-say-scientists.html
- Counter evidence from A History of Ancient Egypt Cambridge, MA: Blackwell Publishers Inc., 1993. http://www.biblicalchronologist.org/answers/exodus_egypt.php
- The global flood; completely impossible.
- Scientists disagree on the impossibility of virtually anything. It is agreed that is it highly unlikely, but such was the case for many scientific discoveries.
- The Bible does not demand the understanding of “global flood.” http://www.reasons.org/articles/the-waters-of-the-flood
- Evidence harmonizes with the Biblical account through genetics: http://www.reasons.org/videos/does-human-genetic-evidence-support-noah-s-floodhttp://creation.com/noah-and-genetics
- Cambrian explosion fits into the Biblical account, though a lack of fossil records is not a firm foundation for any argument. One must not give negative evidence for a claim, but also positive support for their own claim.
- Secular acknowledgment of the lack of fossil records: http://www.pbs.org/wgbh/evolution/library/03/4/l_034_02.html
- Plants are made on the third day before there was a sun to drive their photosynthetic processes.
- The original word “yom” in no way is restricted to meaning a twenty-four hour increment. There is a day-age model here: http://www.godandscience.org/apologetics/day-age.html
- Day-age model aligns with big bang expansion as listed here: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chronology_of_the_universe
- Day-age model puts plant life sometime before 1 billions years ago. Which aligns with the secular model: http://www.nature.com/nature/journal/v473/n7348/full/nature09943.html http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Timeline_of_evolutionary_history_of_life
- Genesis 1 is often interpreted as being in a psychological order rather than actual sequences, this is also how many interpret ancient “historical” documents. In an order of importance rather than sequences. This including the gospels of the new testament, though most believe Luke is in the appropriate sequence of events. Genesis 2 provides a more detailed creation story in which plants are not made before the sun.
- Lastly, and the weakest of all retorts: Genesis 1 does create light first and does not disclose what type of light it is. One simply cannot claim it could not support photosynthesis because we have no idea what sort of light it was.
- The dragon’s tail smacks down to earth one third of the stars. To the author of Revelation, the stars are just little lights that can fall to the ground from the sky. (Shows complete lack of understanding of stars)
- I don’t understand Revelations, and this talk of the dragon tale would be the least of my worries.
- Much of Revelations is understood as symbolism, in this case many believe stars are angels and the tail is satans deception.
- You are one Google search away from seeing the numerous interpretations of Revelations. A book cannot be discarded or deemed false/irrelevant simply because of the literary devices used to convey it’s message.
- Recommended reading: Breaking the Code by Dr. Bruce Metzger
- If you are sick and pray, god will heal you James 5 14-15
- James 1 discloses many reasons why a prayer might not be answers. The book is focused on prayer, which offers more evidence for the legitimacy of prayer rather than the illegitimacy.
- Evidence to support your claim cannot be plucked up from one part of the Bible and not take into account the entire Bible. This is unacceptable from the pulpit as well.
- Paul claims in Romans that all of the earth had received the gospel message because of the apostles efforts [Rom 10:18]
- Not what it’s saying. This argument expressed a complete lack of both understanding and diligence to the claim.
- Paul encourages the spreading of the gospel; this would be nonsensical if the gospel was already spread.
- You cannot claim one verse as valid evidence and deny the validity of all others.
www.reasons.org is a fantastic place to start with when dealing with these sorts of questions.
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Double Date
I and my ego,
You and yours.You and my ego.
Your ego and me.“Double blind date?” I say
“On the contrary” he says “only I will stay.”Thusly, there is no date
Just Blindness and us.
No date, but certainly two
Who perceive they see
And in time they see they do
Not see as they first perceived
Double dating
Your ego and I
You, yourself, and mine. -
The same voices that tell me I’m irrevocably valuable
tell me I’m a piece of shit.And I believe them. Every word.
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“A, B” conversation
A: You know they say winky-faces in texting is the leading cause of male insecurity
B: Hahaha WHAAAT
If anything, I would assume the opposite to some degree.
A: Haha 😉
a winky-face to me says: the context in which these words were said does not immediately reflect the way I meant them.
The ambiguity leaves the positive or negative element up to me. So it constantly conforms to my presupposed concept of myself, of how people “ought” to see me
Thusly its negativeB: Incorrect analysis, my friend. Winky faces are necessary to insinuate facetious jesting which could otherwise not be registered by the recipient.
A: Exactly though. To be a facetious jest, it assumes it’s inappropriate. Thus not appropriate in the context it would otherwise be considered appropriate in. So I’m left wondering how to frame the jest, what to make of it. One could be meaning anything as subtle as slightly more light hearted then perhaps the words would be read OR as extreme as meaning the complete opposite of what was said. And there is no clarification of the winky-face. No rules for which it ought to be engaged it.
Know what I mean 😉B: I think it is then up to the recipient to decipher, which I don’t think is as complicated or grueling as you seem to insinuate. if I were to say “go jump of a cliff! 😉 ” I should certainly hope that you know I am in no way actually suggesting such a thing. If I say “it’s not too late! 😉 ” it is sincere, though playful.. Suggesting that you really could do such a thing, if you wanted. Duh. 😉
Also, where do you come to the conclusion that jesting is inappropriate?! I don’t approve such nonsense.A: fa·ce·tious /fəˈsēSHəs/
Adjective. Treating serious issues with deliberately inappropriate humor; flippant.
B: The Bible says “course” jesting, which then I would assume harsh/foul/inappropriate-ness.
NOT!! Where are you obtaining such ridiculousness ?
fa·ce·tious /fəˈsēSHəs/Adjective. Amusing; humorous. Lacking serious intent.
Oh, the battle over words.
A: Hey giiirl. You said it. Not me.
Take it up with merrium websterB: Merriam * 😛
A: Well played 😉
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don’t know if I can begin to express
the way a body feels
when a body leaves what a body is
to be what a body is
to me. -
Did you know I loved you
when our hearts beat
when the sun rose
when the hand you held
was holding yoursat your mother’s house we could hold each other up
past the sun
at the same door I knew to ignore
now my chest is for
your head to restthere were hours I felt nothing
there were hours I did not know
did you know I could love you
when I was not sure