The same voices that tell me I’m irrevocably valuable
tell me I’m a piece of shit.
And I believe them. Every word.
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“A, B” conversation
A: You know they say winky-faces in texting is the leading cause of male insecurity
B: Hahaha WHAAAT
If anything, I would assume the opposite to some degree.
A: Haha 😉
a winky-face to me says: the context in which these words were said does not immediately reflect the way I meant them.
The ambiguity leaves the positive or negative element up to me. So it constantly conforms to my presupposed concept of myself, of how people “ought” to see me
Thusly its negativeB: Incorrect analysis, my friend. Winky faces are necessary to insinuate facetious jesting which could otherwise not be registered by the recipient.
A: Exactly though. To be a facetious jest, it assumes it’s inappropriate. Thus not appropriate in the context it would otherwise be considered appropriate in. So I’m left wondering how to frame the jest, what to make of it. One could be meaning anything as subtle as slightly more light hearted then perhaps the words would be read OR as extreme as meaning the complete opposite of what was said. And there is no clarification of the winky-face. No rules for which it ought to be engaged it.
Know what I mean 😉B: I think it is then up to the recipient to decipher, which I don’t think is as complicated or grueling as you seem to insinuate. if I were to say “go jump of a cliff! 😉 ” I should certainly hope that you know I am in no way actually suggesting such a thing. If I say “it’s not too late! 😉 ” it is sincere, though playful.. Suggesting that you really could do such a thing, if you wanted. Duh. 😉
Also, where do you come to the conclusion that jesting is inappropriate?! I don’t approve such nonsense.A: fa·ce·tious /fəˈsēSHəs/
Adjective. Treating serious issues with deliberately inappropriate humor; flippant.
B: The Bible says “course” jesting, which then I would assume harsh/foul/inappropriate-ness.
NOT!! Where are you obtaining such ridiculousness ?
fa·ce·tious /fəˈsēSHəs/Adjective. Amusing; humorous. Lacking serious intent.
Oh, the battle over words.
A: Hey giiirl. You said it. Not me.
Take it up with merrium websterB: Merriam * 😛
A: Well played 😉
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don’t know if I can begin to express
the way a body feels
when a body leaves what a body is
to be what a body is
to me. -
Did you know I loved you
when our hearts beat
when the sun rose
when the hand you held
was holding yoursat your mother’s house we could hold each other up
past the sun
at the same door I knew to ignore
now my chest is for
your head to restthere were hours I felt nothing
there were hours I did not know
did you know I could love you
when I was not sure -
Make no mistake
I could love you better if we had no bodies at all -
We, we are the ones who see
We the ones who wield words the most
We see the thing in which we mean to be crafting up a cage and carrying to you
..that not a single thing will fit in the largest or most elaborate cages we make.. -
trying to sleep
Close them close them please
I keep unsealing eyes to find a life;
but absent of time I can survive
sealed up in wet animal eyes
no conscious thought- just distortions of what I want
to be thinking and cannot… -
I laid out a table for to die upon
Yĕhovah overturned my table
and outdid the totality of death. -
Its not like us
all spread apart, you holy and all that,
I was lonely but they say it means
well I don’t know what
but its uneasying.I undertook that high
you, the honest, realized
we were siblings at best
gross and physical, undone and all
should’a never kissed like we said
we wouldn’t at first. Should’a never
walked along beaches or trails or sat on hills or seen the stars or lights or lulled on wedding-nights
far far too much to take at all… -
That was me. That was me. That was
me in your shadow and around your lungs
heavy breath and racing hearts I was
that man you gave my name..
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